[ She laughs, a little, wry and soft. ] Oh, they did. Risen called me out immediately. But I really thought -

[ She stops, swallowing hard. It had been so long, that helpless grief and fury muted and tucked away, and then... ]

I'd forgotten that sometimes it doesn't matter how hard we try. How much we care.

[ Tired and bitter, but she does inject some reassurance in there. ]

Your other self never quite learned that, I think. My other self forgot everything else.