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[cassassin]

[ cass shakes her head. ]

Called her. So many times. Looked on--the news, the lists, tried... everything I could-- [ she had been set on not returning home. but she did everything in her power, hoping against hope that her friends might have made it. even knowing they couldn't have before she even started. ]

I still can't-- [ she takes a breath, shaking. ] I got... assam there. As my regular thing. Thanks to Alfred. And I still can't-- I can't drink it anymore. Or... any teas like it. Even the smell, it...

[bodilesswarrior]

[Her eyes sting, imagining Cass doing that alone, remembering how it feels as the hope drains away.]

Sense memory. It brings us back. I - [She blinks, a couple of times.] It gets easier, to remember them. To think about them without feeling like you're drowning. [In grief, in guilt, in helplessness.]

[cassassin]

[ another deep breath, holding on tightly. she nods, taking that in. but barbara's word choice-- ]

I... almost did drown. In Bludhaven. For real.

[bodilesswarrior]

[It makes her wince, a little bit, and she knows it's stupid; all of them risk their lives every day, all of them have come so close.

But in Bludhaven, Cass did it without her. Without any of them.]

Must have been one hell of a fight.

[cassassin]

[ she nods, absently. ]

Gemini. The Brotherhood of Evil. [ a pause. ] Saw Steph. Heard her. Before I came up. Don't... think it was real, but...

[bodilesswarrior]

[She almost snarls; she knows about the Brotherhood being inducted into the Society.

Stephanie's name kicks her in the chest, vanquishes everything else.]

Oh, Cass. [Soft and frayed and full of regret.] Real or not - that kind of thing can still save us, sometimes.

[cassassin]

[ she nods, just a bit. ]


It did. [ she holds on tightly, eyes closed. cass tries to get her breathing under control, tries to relax. ] I--we talked, then I asked... what to do. She said... "Do what you do best. What you... taught me to do. Fight."

So... I did. [ there's a long pause. ] Saw her... before the pit, too. That one... [ she stops herself. it doesn't make sense if it wasn't real--she had been dead, and that time steph knew things that cass definitely didn't--but also she knows it couldn't have been. steph was never actually dead. ]