TLV 5 - Video

[bodilesswarrior]

[Barbara is twirling a pen round her fingers with careless dexterity as she leans back in her wheelchair, gaze distant.]

I was going to talk about being a Warden and the responsibilities it entails and the sort of things we need to commit to when we agree to come on board this ship.

[She shakes her head, as the pen spins faster.]

But the truth is I'm not sure if I even have a right to be here. I barely address my own issues, half the time. I know they're there, of course, but there's always something more important.

And when it comes to other people... [A low, bitter laugh.] I ended my engagement over the phone. Didn't even tell him why.

I've used the people I love most. I've manipulated them. I've made them face near certain death, horrific trauma, brutal violence. All because of the mission. The greater good.

[The pen snaps, and she lets the pieces fall.]

Sometimes I think I'm a better vigilante than I am a person, and that's not what the Barge needs.

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[bodilesswarrior]

[Her eyes go wide, and she doesn't react at all for a second. Then her arms circle his shoulders, warm and strong.]

Oh, Bruce, it's all right. I pushed everyone away. Just like you did. But I was lucky - there were people who found me, who brought me back.

[She holds him closer.] I can help bring you back, Bruce. I will, I promise. I love you too.

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[theonlyresponse]

I wish I'd been that lucky. I think if Dick and Alfred hadn't left me I wouldn't have ended up like this. I don't know if I'm angry at them for leaving or if I'm angry at myself for causing it. [His voice cracks.] It makes me sick when I think about that day. I know Clark and Diana shouldn't have judged me for acting out of grief, but they did, and it hurt. It pushed me over the edge. They saw me a monster. I thought I was a monster already, why not go all the way?

[Pulls away enough to look at her.] I don't think I can do this, even if I want to try.